this was during my very first relationship(of 6 months) catastrophe, with Jarir. and as you can see, i was pretty much heartbroken, that i doodled it all away(i was 12, what do you expect?). but one thing's for sure, it didn't make me feel any better then, though. sad, sad memories that i nearly cried when i recalled it all back again. =(

MY LONG-LOST DIARY!

inside includes, several pages of the horrid downfall of my second "relationship"(of mere 3 months) with Irsyad(that bastard!), my opinions after the break-up/vows that i hold on to for 3 very long years till i met Azri and whatnots. when i read it all back, i realised the grudges towards him still remains pretty strongly in me. i labelled him a playboy, in this very diary of mine. -???- LOL but, hell yeah, it's true! i hate playboys like to the deepest core, seriously. once, is definitely enough. X/

if it was to happen to me today supposedly, i'd sing this to the bastard!

Never again will I hear you

Never again will I miss you

Never again will I fall to you

Never again will I kiss you

Never again will I want to

Never again will I love you

okay fine stop it! =X it's in the past, whatever. i just hope these kinds of memories will not repeat itself again. it's very hurtful, trust me. and undeniably, guys are pretty much hated by me then but, thank god i didn't turn into a lesbian or anything. LOL! what matters most now, is my relationship with dearest Azri. i hope everything goes well to our very end. =D i love you! i really do...