in or out?

finally(thank goodness!), we came to an agreement this afternoon, after several days of "negotiation" that doesn't work wonders 80% of the time. -_-". either i was too fickle-minded or stubborn(more likely), to give in thus, giving him another chance after that horrible, horrible catastrophe on the 12/08/2007, or he was too caught up with his own emotional feelings that he totally forgot about mine(as in, equally hurt, too!), thus making me think, "no way am i getting back together with him again, ever!" --- if you know what i mean... p/s: i am not at all convinced initially, by the way(that shows how stubborn my heart is, tsk3). =(

however, this is our deal agreement.

we will not break up but!, we'll have some time off from each other(like what Raidah, Fifa and Irfan propose then), just to give ourselves some space and think everything through.

i guess that's fine with me, i suppose. though it's hard for me to forgive whatever that he did, i'm just trying my very best to be the bigger "man" here by giving him another chance to fix himself, and prove myself wrong. i believe, everyone can change if they really, really want to. and i have faith in azri. deep down inside, i know(and i'm sure everyone else knows it very well too) that i love him ever so dearly since our very beginning. it's just not that easy to let him go, no matter how bad he could turn out to be. i'm afraid love, is indeed very blind don't you think?

i'm taking a huge risk here but still, like i said before, i might be falling in love with a heartbreaker, but who knows, this heartbreaker could be my only one. none other.

let's just see how it goes. so, 19 months and still counting, you guys! =D