my every weekends sucks when there's no Azri to entertain my bored-to-the-core soul instead, truckloads of chores awaiting to be cleared and done with in my house. pfft, it couldn't be more irritating, trust me on this. -_-" however, i'm so used to cleaning and everything so, it doesn't really matter anyways. just that, i miss the outdoors... with him. the bad weather make today rather... mundaneeeee. =( but, i'm loving it, though. yay!

and my lil' brother just had to force me pose for the camera while i was busily ironing a large pile of clothes in his bedroom(thus explains the untidy-ness). i know, i look so very the ugly makcik. face it, that's just my everyday indoors look, you guys. pfft -_-". having 100% natural look in this picture was the main point here anyways. and oh! i tied my hair. LOL

i had to tell this. while i was cooking asam pedas(which turned out great, by the way!) with my umi in the kitchen, we had a nice mother-to-daughter talk then and i came to realise how much both of my parents loves me, like really, really loves me despite all of the arguments we have had recently. and i break down for like several minutes right there, in front of her. it's just... i feel like as if, all this while i'm just not appreciative enough to have them as my parents like they did, to have me born into this world, and to take that huge responsibility to take care of me as long as i'm still alive --- if you know what i mean. it's just too sad, too, too sad to think it all over. i should really start repenting, seriously and start being a good girl. well, for their sake, at least.

i just long for the old Nurazimah Mazelan. boy, oh boy when is she coming home at all? ='(