+ PERIOD 4: Nur@zri's 3rd Year! ♥ 4: Edusave Merit Bursary($300)! 12: School Re-Opens!

+ MELODY

- Conversation -

umi: i don't know how Cik Misa came to know about it, honestly but yeah she knew.

me: OMG` i'm so going to be dead when Hari Raya comes.

umi: why?

me: -sighs- there'll definitely be too many questions to be answered, you'll see.

umi: i don't think so and do not assume as you please, Azimah.

me: oh, like as if you don't know my paternal side. too many kaypoh uncle and aunties to entertain.

umi: -laughs- they're just worried about you, that's all.

me: yeah right.

-i got up from my seat to wash my dishes so, i head straight towards my kitchen-

me: this year's Hari Raya just doesn't feel like Hari Raya for me.

umi: what? -perhaps, i didn't say it loud enough-

me: this year's Hari Raya just doesn't feel like Hari Raya for me. i don't even have the momentum to celebrate it. there's just too many problems and...

umi: don't you ever say that, Azimah. it's like as if you don't have any relatives at all to visit and whatnots.

me: oh, why worry about relatives since my very own family doesn't care. just look at baba. he won't even want to talk to or worst, look at me anymore.

umi: he's just too disappointed in you, Azimah.

me: yeah, i know disappointed but, to that extent? and why? school matters? why can't my own parents support/encourage/motivate me? is that a little too much to ask for? why should everyone else care about me more and not you guys? why?

-umi kept quiet-

me: look, if baba still don't want to talk to me anymore, i, 100 times more do not want to talk to him at all. and don't ever wish that i'll even try to start a conversation with him again. it's not like i didn't try and you know it. he's just being ignorant and i hate that.

-i walked towards my room and cried, eventually. umi turned speechless right after-

[/read]

Labels: nobody said it was easy