+ PERIOD 4: Nur@zri's 3rd Year! ♥ 4: Edusave Merit Bursary($300)! 12: School Re-Opens!

+ MELODY

some people come into our lives and quickly go.

some people move our souls to dance, they awaken us to new understandings with the passing whisper of their wisdom.

some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon, they stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints on our hearts.

and we are never ever the same.

[//read]
living my life as a single girl again was pretty much abnormal i should say. no more constant SMS's, no more late night calls, no more that ever so beautiful three-letter-words to be heard, no more having funs etc. but hey, i'll get used to it. there's always a start to a new beginning, am i right? one thing's for sure, i ain't going back that track... with the same person. i think i've had enough. furthermore, for the very first time, i had the sincerest support/motivation from my parents that i longed for since ever, seriously. they're my strengths for now and it is indeed enough to help me glide through these hardships with ease. none could ever beat that. ♥

it's just funny when you think that you're really, truly, madly, deeply in love with someone but, you just simply couldn't see your future(that you've dreamed of) deep in his eyes. it's funny when i thought that he was really the one when suddenly, out of the blue, i realised that he wasn't afterall. and it's funny when i thought that it's his warmth that'll give me comfort 'til my very end, seems rather cold right now. some things just can't happen, even if we keep saying that it will. it's indeed painful but, i'll just let it be. ='( i've loved you, heart and soul so strong that i simply couldn't endure it any longer. i'm not saying it's entirely your fault. it could've been mine too 'cause we both did our part so, i'm sincerely sorry for whatever really. so baby, before that love changes to hate, i think it's best we stop before we go anymore deeper then where we've been now(which is already, undeniably deep enough). i hope you'd understand.

remember, love without respect is meaningless. just so you know, that's where our relationship's at. and when you said that i'll regret over this, sorry but, i didn't and never will. is it... wrong? sighs.

due to this issue however, i thought of deleting my Friendster account, change my e-mail address, re-boot my home PC which is full of our pictures, open a new blog etc. but, i just can't. maybe, just maybe, that it's not for now. perhaps i am not really 'over' it yet, you see. i guess i'll have to wait for ??? days/months/years longer. i don't know. but, i did some minor changes here and there if you guys'd care. -.- oh, bother.

just a side note though,

ABANG: $150.
AZRI: $300.

if you had promised me that you'll pay up, then you might jolly well please do so 'cause yes Azri, honestly i'm broke. i did my part when you're in desperate need for money so, why can't you guys do the exact same thing, am i right? screw empty promises, seriously!

i guess that's all for today. i need a good night's sleep. ♥

Labels: angst