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to whomever it may concern,

as being a very sensitive girl myself, i think that there's a need to express my feelings here(well at least, some of it -.-), just so that you'd understand more clearly about why i was ultimately upset with you then. also, deep down inside of me silently hope that these confessions will in turn make things right over whatever that had happened between us, quite recently. this is my blog, my say, my rule. so, peace and let's start getting on it.

first of all, i simply couldn't believe that you're the one who actually broke the ice, despite having absolutely nothing to be prepared for me initially(like for example: extra clothes/jacket/sweater/blazer etc.), if really you'd already have that in mind. it might be abrupt at that moment in time('cause we're just having fun blablabla...) you say but please, as a decent boyfriend, anyone will tend to at least THINK about it first before they actually do something, which in this case, is rather insensitive towards their girlfriend. so i guess, you should too. saying sorry right after is useless seriously, 'cause no matter what, it had already been done.

also, you say that i couldn't take jokes. jokes?! that's some kind of a joke to you? i supposed 'bully-ing' your girlfriend in front of like what, dozens of people seems such fun, aye? boy please, grow up! you're that proud to be an 18-years-old, so may i suggest you jolly well act like one. whatever it is, i admit, that i am so NOT into this kind of stuffs, never will and you, of all people, should know it very, very well by now. if you don't like me this way, then i am so sorry to say that i couldn't please you up to that extent, 'cause that's just the way i am. accept it or leave, that's all i'm saying. p/s: i repeat, I AM VERY SENSITIVE! so please, kindly do take note of that.

not forgetting, the fact that it was another unknown guy who offered me some tissue after all the massacre, and not you(who at that point of time was busily concentrating on the next victim to attack then) was such an ultimate disappointment! no, i am not at all proud(like you said) about it. instead, i was so sad, that... i am just too sad to function. it's only after you realised that there's another guy who's giving me some attention then that you started showing you care. or perhaps, you're just trying to make him jealous by showing yourself off as being my boyfriend? see, i don't even know what's your purpose either. when you sat beside me and tried to kissed me on my cheeks, you know i declined 'cause want to know why? i hated you pretty badly since. no offense, though.

this might just be another argument you think but actually, it does shows so much if you take it in a little deeper into thoughts. especially for girls, agreed?

going 2 years. -roll eyes- secretly, i question myself, "hakikatnya, apa ada pada angka?" 'cause honestly, i couldn't care less how long our relationship will be instead, i'd rather care about our attitude/love/care towards each other in order to make it last. that's what that matters, none others. ♥

it's been raining cats and dogs for days, hasn't it? goodness.

so yesterday was Erwan&Kalsom's auspicious day together! it's the day where they're legally(religious-wise) one, so to speak. fine, i'm crapping. although we had to endure the heavy downpour on our way there, it was pretty much worthwhile i should say. with great company, nothing will ever beat that, trust me. so Congratulations, to both of you, the newlyweds! you guys look so sweet together, seriously. see below;-

sweet kan?

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU!
semoga berkekalan hingga ke anak cucu akhir masa, insya'allah.
and buat anak cepat-cepat, kasi Aminah jaga, LOL!
meeeeesti best! =)

by the way, pardon my editting skills please. it's hideous, i know. thanks to Paint lah eh. sighs. anyways, a decent picture of them with us by their side will be up soon once i've received it from Aminah 'cause the picture's with her right now, alright? p/s: just so you know, the enormous red heart's function is to focus on the newlyweds, NOT others who surrounds them. lame but still, it's worth the efforts, i guess? =/

i wonder what's it like to be a bride someday. all eyes are definitely on you, right? will there be any sense of awkwardness, perhaps? i hope not. or maybe, nervous breakdown? god, i'll sweat like crazy i tell you if it comes to that. argh! i'm practically doomed.

so, on our way home, we camwhored.

and thus i conclude,

it's a need! a desire!

i've got to get one myself while i'm still working. word.

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MI HAD CALLED, LIKE FINALLY!
got to rush there by 4 tomorrow!
wish me tons of luck!
woohooooo!

i just thought they'd never. but, i guess i was wrong. Alhamdulillah, syukur.

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alright, my butt's aching right now. i've been spending hours and hours in front of this computer of mine due to editting pictures, blogging and etc. i'm just bored, that's all. and oh, civil war will only end if... i give in. otherwise, don't bother. thank you. so, 'til other times, goodbye.

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