+ PERIOD 4: Nur@zri's 3rd Year! ♥ 4: Edusave Merit Bursary($300)! 12: School Re-Opens!

+ MELODY

my heart desires for only you.

i'm dead bored at home with absolutely nothing to do, just counting the hours before i actually have to go to work, though being at all hesitant about it. i think my umi's angry with me for some reason or another that i know nothing of(80%:- most probably, it's due to the fact that i lied to her about going to work yesterday but, i didn't and that she accidentally found out about it etc. oh wells, it's pretty normal i should say). truth is, i feel kind of guilty and am actually rather scared to ever face her again, for now at least. sighs. god umi, it's just a white lie... ='(

i browsed through blogskins minutes earlier and it was such a bore, honestly. almost none is of my interest lately. so, i guess i shall stick with my current skin a tad longer, i supposed since it couldn't be helped. moreover, bloghopping on the other hand, is killing me nowadays. none actually update as frequently as before. i'd loveeeee to know about what's currently going on in other people's life you see, and since via blogging is the easiest way to achieve that, i'm pretty much disappointed about it, no offense though. i felt as if i'm missing quite a lot and i hate that. even my baby's blog is bleahsssss, really. i always drop by, almost everytime undeniably but, i'm afraid, it upsets me a lot by doing so! i love him but this... it sucks. =( p/s: maybe, it's just me 'cause to others, it might not be that much big of a deal, you know. so, let's just take a chill pill, alright. peace.

have you ever wondered, what's it like to be a spoilt/rich bitch? i did, and honestly, i think that they lead a sad, sad life. though being gifted a barbie-like kind of world, where you've got almost everything and that your life's perfect in any way but frankly speaking, love and comfort's definitely lacking. yes, money can buy almost everything people say but money is also, the root of all evil. if you accidentallly picked the wrong path in life, being rich would be the last you could ever dream of, scary but true. in fact socially, you think everyone likes/adores you but sadly, they'll hate you, most probably due to pure jealousy. that is just so sad 'cause you'll think you have friends whom you think you could ever depend on but, they're not actually there, heart and soul for you. and not forgetting, love. you'll always feel insecure about whether your partner really loves you for you, or perhaps, for your luxurious life instead. it's even more sad, if you chose the least moral way ever, that is to do sex as and whenever with any guy possible you've encountered just to decide the truth about that fact. people keep calling you names, bitch/spoilt brat/whore/hoe etc., making decent guys being so afraid to even get this close to you, which indirectly leads you to only the bad ones that long for lust not, love. it'll be worst if you tend to be contented with this way of life. will you ever get married, decently? only god knows. such sad life, aye? i totally feel for these girls. i'm just lucky and thankful that i'm not one of them.

ordinary life is much, much loved! ♥

i don't know if i should go out early today and meet my baby first before i go to work. i'm just scared the same thing will happen again. plus, i'm too tired... and lazy. hee hee. but, i miss him a hell lot right now. guess, i'd call him now(he's probably still be sleeping at this hour, pfft). 'til other times. have a nice day!

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