+ PERIOD 4: Nur@zri's 3rd Year! ♥ 4: Edusave Merit Bursary($300)! 12: School Re-Opens!

+ MELODY

there is too much to do with hate but, much more to do with love.

as i've had promised, mid-October it is and i'm back. miss me much? (ew, lol!) life has yet to pardon me any mercy. the thought of having time flew pass by me at a rate that's totally out of my league, irks me to the deepest core! CCA is so not helping, please. just so you know, i'm caught up with my tight schedules this coming holidays and, i am not at all happy about it for i do feel that personal space is essential(highly opinionated, by the way). still, this is only the beginning. i can't possibly whine my way out of it all. :/

i got to be strong and, stand tall.
i'll fight my way, through it all.

it's funny how tons of words are playing around in my head right now desiring to be written but, i can't seem to put it all in words. maybe, just maybe that some things are better off left unsaid. true? all i can say is; inevitable mistakes are made, noted, learned and i could only love him more, nothing less. i'll stay true to you sayang, for as long as it takes. ♥

ikrar kita mengharungi badai sakti, mencari sinar kasih suci.
walaupun nafasku ini pasti terhenti.

jangan pula ada sangsi lubuk hati, percaya cinta tiada ganti.
kau yang ku cari, kaulah kasih, hingga ke akhir hayat nanti.

yes, my promotional examinations are indeed over(YAHOOOOO!). however so, the await for 'the moment of truth' that determines our fate, especially in MI(be it promoted/advanced/expelled etc.); Monday, 20/10/2008 Pre-U 1 Promotional Exercise+Results is making me devastatedly depressed. please oh please get this over and, done with A.S.A.P 'cause these feelings are uber annoying.

in order to relieve the unnecessary thoughts out of our heads, savoring our moments together while we still can seems like a better option. hence;

an outing and, Eagle Eye together the last two days with my bunch of hooligans! food was great, movie was awesome yet, unbeatable and company was fantabulous. we should do this more often, yes? more pictures... :]

there are more people supposedly but these pictures consists of mainly the 'muka-tak-tahu-malu's. lol! not forgetting, regarding 08A4's Raya Outing this Sunday, 19/10/2008;

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CONFIRMED!

expected number of people: 27-30
transport: a 30-seat bus, $45/hour
expected journey: 12 hours long, MAXIMUM!

Hafiza's father will help us pay half of the amount. much thanks, Hafiza. :] NOTE: PRIOR TO THAT, EVERYONE MUST BRING ALONG AT LEAST $12/PERSON FOR THE LEFTOVERS. outsiders are allowed but, not too many of them. so far, there's only 4 of them noted and that's acceptable. should there be any changes, i'll keep you guys updated here in my blog for i'm GEP-ing(which equates to not coming to school, duh) this Thursday and Friday. hehe. ^^

p/s: tolong jangan ada yang back out last minute eh, please. aku cekik-cekik batang leher korang.

KORANG BOLEH PERGI MAMPUS SANA, SATU-SATU PERANGAI MACAM SIAL!

i'll take that back.

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anyways...

Gifted Education Programme(GEP), my work attachment, prompts me to be one of the invigilators(assistant officer aka. runner to be specific :]) for these 'gifted' primary 3 student's test for two days. formal clothing, act like a teacher(an occupation i've always dreamed of), walk around, screen coding etc. ... easy money, i must say-$$$-. this is besides the fact that i was posted all the way to Opera Estate Primary School which costs me $24 for a taxi ride from Sembawang this morning, of course. FREAKING FAR LAH THAT PLACE! :'[

and, i could only;

sighs. lol!
ok, merepek. 'til other times, lovelies! ^^

Labels: friends, gep, raya outing, relationship, results, update

it's been a while now.
so, let me break the ice.

just so you know, i'm living a bliss at this very moment in time(GP project's issue aside, though; no thanks to Masuri -!!!-). everything's fine, everything turns out the exact way that i wanted it to and, i couldn't be more grateful. Alhamdulillah, syukur.

i'm absolutely proud to confess that my relationship with dearest Azri could not have been any better. honestly, i've never but, at all feel this much comfortable with someone before, ever in my 19 years of living thus far. undoubtedly, he changed a lot(positively, of course) and, he never fails to try to understand me and my ways deeper than the physicals. should you not know me, i am a very complicated girlfriend that most guys'd probably execrate the very presence of me; i'm a perfectionist, i know exactly what i want for life(and that includes my future partner's self nature/character as well) and, i have high expectations on basically every single thing that i came to know of to the very extent that even with strangers, i tend to wonder(and by this, i meant not judging!) what he/she's like as a person from what i see. yes, i am that pesky. lol. well, at least i'm not pampered/too clingy for his $$$$$, unlike some typical girls or should i say, materialistic bitches out there -.-"; like pestering him to get me something i desire/crazed for etc. i've never done that and, i definitely won't. i know Azri's a little pressurised with all the demands that i lay on his broad shoulders but, he never gives up and i'm very much impressed by that. i know that this might sound so cliche' but; i really thank god that it's him i chose to be with, about approximately 2 1/2 years ago. 'cause despite his imperfections, believe it or not, he's the perfect boyfriend-material none other guy could ever meet. what's past is past and, let us let bygones be bygones. what matters is, now/the present. 30 and beyond, baby. we'll glide through thick and thin together. i love you. ♥

should you happen to read my Friday, 4th July 2008's post entitled 'Unwanted', i wrote something like this;

issues gives you tissues.

i can't wait for Azri's return this weekend. i need him very badly which, i don't even know why. he's my only medicine, the only one who could make me smile which i've yet to for the past two days. my mind's everywhere, my heart's jigsaw-puzzled and, i am not happy for some reason or another. i think $$$$$/account book or, both's the issue here. no wait, i think it's my-umi's-batiks-that-have-yet-to-be-retrieved-since-months-ago issue. but, then again, corset's $$$$$ issue? mid-year examination result's issue? i don't know! there's just too many issues stuck here in my head. a therapy/spa treatment would be excellent, pleaseeeee. -.-"

mood-swinging. ~!@#$%^&*()

the ones that are striked off had all been settled and, my mind's freeeee! lol. not to forget, i withdrew from my further commitment as 'Ramlah'(the name of the character i was supposed to play) with Khilaf's production(an official theatre thingy, supposedly to act with big stars from Suria like; Mastura Ahmad and Abang Mok himself etc. i know, coolio... lol) due to some inevitable parent's dissentient, as usual. it's a waste, i know but still, i've got to respect. they're my parents afterall. oh well. :'[

and, mid-year examination results! lol. i know this is not a necessity but, it's just an update on what's happening in my life, for the week or whatsoever not. hence, these are my results that i've gotten thus far;

JENG, JENG, JENG
like, -.-"

H2 Principles Of Accounting: A
H2 Kesusasteraan: B(this is disappointing much, i tell you)
H1 Mathematics: A

just fyi, i topped two papers; H1 Mathematics, highest in class(tied with Amal since we got the same marks) as well as, H2 Kesusasteraan's paper part 2(that is Sastera, itself), highest for the whole cohort. and, Cikgu Mardiana just had to announce it during yesterday's MCS training in front of everyone. malulah aku. lol. but, thanks anyways and i've got to congratulate myself for achieving such results 'cause trust me, it ain't easy. and, i am not bragging just, spreading the joy. lol. MOB and GP's marks are still a mystery. i just hoped that i survived both. please, please, please don't dampen my spirit. :]

last but not least, i think i've got to make this very clear. ever since school starts, i think it's best if i'll only blog during the weekends(when i'm free, that is). so, may i officially declare that my blog's on;

semi-hiatus, to be specific.
'til other times. :]

p/s: i'm missing you so much. meet you later, baby. *kiss

//editted at 0845hr, 13th July 2008.

just a little update 'cause i think it's essential to me, at least? lol. :]

yesterday, i went out with Azri the whole day throughout. though our plan was all haywired initially due to some inevitable reasons(human beings are like ants during the weekends in Singapore, aye? they're everywhere and, damn irritating to the core!) still, we scuttled around Bugis to buy him new wardrobes; 3, to be specific. all suits him very well, i must say(tengok ah, siapa pilihkan, lol). then we head back to North, settled at Woodlands Civics Centre to do my piled up homeworks for the week together(fyi, this is our initial plan but too bad, National Library's super packed then);

H1 Mathematics: assignment 4 qn. 2, 3, 4, 5, 8/graphing technique's worksheet
H2 Mangement Of Business: research on 'small businesses'
IRP: 4 articles altogether(abandoned since months ago, lol)

IRP file check's next week and, i panicked. i hate essays! even if i had said this for infinity times, i'd still hate it. and i won't even bother to do it, like seriously. so(this is actually my favourite part of the day);

Azri helped me complete 2 of the articles!
such a dear, ain't he?

he struggled through it, undoubtedly 'cause he gets easily distracted. you should seriously see the way he gradually gets his ideas to write, lol. i can't help it but, to laugh my ass off at his priceless expressions. however, it's his efforts that counts. and, i can't thank him enough. therefore;

////edit IRP: 2 articles's done, 2 left.

as you can see, approximately 3/4 of my homework's completed. the rest, i have to do it like n.o.w? can't believe i am still typing. goodness. lol. :]

p/s: Azri, i love you. ♥

Labels: azri, blog's status, issues settled, results, update